That I haven't learned my lesson.
That I make the same mistakes.
That I'm no better off than I was before.
That lack of self-control and discipline will plague me for the rest of my life.
That these holes I put myself in, when I get behind, are really what makes me not want to do any of the things I wanted before.
That I am afraid my life is all distractions and no substance.
Well now I've said it.
Yeah, it scares me, too. More than it could possibly scare you.