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Ups and Downs - Salvador Dali in a lawn chair.
I'm invisible without 3D glasses.
Ups and Downs
He shouldn't speak to me so harshly when I don't deserve it.

He insults my intelligence and brutally underestimates me.

He is narrowminded and hypocritical.

He is stubborn and uneducated.

He angers easily over unimportant things (like throwing the zippo I bought him against the wall when it's not working instead of just refilling it).

He is illogical and irrational, responding to situations emotionally (with a chip on his shoulder and with the most viperous responses) instead of just examining the situation and listening.

He's fixiated on his own superiority and often gloats, brags, glorifies himself beyond need or honesty.

I love him. We've been together a long time, at least by my standards.

I want to make it work. I know that I can be happy alone, but I want us to be able to be happy together.

But the doubts are becoming more numerous, more pervasive. I don't know if I can live with him and be happy, even for a few months, much less the rest of my life.

mood: drained drained
music: a random anime intro

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nyarl From: nyarl Date: November 24th, 2001 12:21 am (UTC) (link)
didn't we have this conversation when you were in japan?


feel free to call - it's been too long since we've talked.
birdofparadox From: birdofparadox Date: November 26th, 2001 07:57 am (UTC) (link)


i've been there, girlie... and it's not easy. i don't envy your position, but i do care/worry/sympathize.

any time you need mate, come on over :)
lost_angel From: lost_angel Date: November 26th, 2001 08:12 pm (UTC) (link)
yyyuuuuuuummmm, mate. the mate you order is the best I've ever had.

and I thank both you and Nyarl for listening/understanding.

I need to come visit, regardless. I haven't seen you guys in ages.

More holidays are coming up, and I'll be passing through your way soon.
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