Stronger and harder than a bad girl's dream. (lost_angel) wrote,
Stronger and harder than a bad girl's dream.

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Ups and Downs

He shouldn't speak to me so harshly when I don't deserve it.

He insults my intelligence and brutally underestimates me.

He is narrowminded and hypocritical.

He is stubborn and uneducated.

He angers easily over unimportant things (like throwing the zippo I bought him against the wall when it's not working instead of just refilling it).

He is illogical and irrational, responding to situations emotionally (with a chip on his shoulder and with the most viperous responses) instead of just examining the situation and listening.

He's fixiated on his own superiority and often gloats, brags, glorifies himself beyond need or honesty.

I love him. We've been together a long time, at least by my standards.

I want to make it work. I know that I can be happy alone, but I want us to be able to be happy together.

But the doubts are becoming more numerous, more pervasive. I don't know if I can live with him and be happy, even for a few months, much less the rest of my life.

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